I learned that a person can say the sweetest things without meaning any of it. I still don’t understand how or why, but I have learned to accept it.
I learned that healing after a heartbreak can’t be rushed. It will take time, but it also takes resolve to move on. I know when the time comes, because sad songs on the radio become just beautiful music.
I learned that when the other person did not choose me, it is not necessarily because I’m lacking. It is because I am not what he is looking for, and it will not change even if I try to change.
I learned that after falling in love and getting my heart broken a few times, I think I will know better the next time around, but I don’t. Each love is different. Each love still makes me wonder, still makes me nervous, still makes me scramble for what to do. Not knowing is what builds each love story.
I learned that I need to do the things that I’ve always wanted to do no matter how late it is. Like living in a different country at age 27, learning how to drive, or having swimming lessons in my thirties. The feeling of accomplishment is the same as when I rode my first bike when I was six.
I learned that the things I most regret are those that I did not do. Sometimes, I need to experience certain things for myself. I will always prefer knowing over wondering, even though something feels like a doomed writing on the wall. Who knows, it might turn out differently after all. If not, then I can walk away without a what-if, without looking back.
I learned that being in love makes me look forward to waking up in the morning. It may be because of that “good morning” message, or wanting to take extra time to look pretty that day. It doesn’t matter, I just want the day to start as soon as possible.
I learned that I need to love and accept myself to receive love and acceptance from others. How I feel emanates from my being and reflects in my actions. The company I keep sense it.
Most of all, I learned that it doesn’t matter how many scenarios I’ve imagined in my head about my own fairy tale story. The universe has a way of surprising me, and it always gives me something I’ve never imagined before.